Somewhere Over the Rainbow

 A few weeks ago, my oncologist asked me to get some labs drawn because it had been over a year since we had “checked in” with my bloodwork. While I’ve gained confidence in my healing with each subsequent scan that comes back stable, I still get a bit nervous. 

Once you’ve had cancer, you always hold your breath a little when it’s time to “check”…

Per the doctor’s orders, I hopped over to the Stanford Clinic in Los Gatos to get labs drawn (I was in San Jose with Trinity for a dance convention at the time). The labs were checking for COVID antibodies and a general CBC panel to see if my immune system had recovered from all the chemotherapy. To my surprise, they only needed four vials this time versus the times when I had 13 or more drawn. As I left the lab, I thought back to the days of walking into the hospital, slow, weak, and feeling defeated. I was hit with a deep sense of gratitude to have those days behind me. 

A couple of days later, a notification for “New lab results in your patient portal” popped up on my phone. Anxious to see see the results, I opened the reports while Trinity was busy in her dance class.  I sat there amongst a multitude of other parents who were all watching kids performing on stage.  My only focus at that moment was to see what the numbers showed, knowing that these lab results could quickly change the trajectory of the proceeding days, months, and weeks ahead.   I rapidly scanned the report for any “out of range” numbers so I could hopefully put my mind at ease. 

Ugh, to my dismay, a couple of elevated numbers made me a little concerned. Immediately, my mind started to race: What did this mean? I have been feeling a bit run down lately, traveling a lot, and not resting enough – could this be the reason? I started to reprimand myself, as my mind began to wonder: is it back?

Unfortunately, I had to wait to find out. My telehealth visit was the following week to review the results, but those three small words set up camp in the back of my mind: Is it back?  Had I let “normal” life get in the way of doing what I know I am supposed to do. A bit of fear started to stir up thoughts of doubt about my healing… thoughts that I am all too familiar with and I know aren’t from God.

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

I stopped myself from going there and encouraged myself: there is grace. I am not a perfect person… far from it. But praise God that He uses and empowers imperfect people like me. I may only be a work in progress,  but through Him I can do great things. Every day I am humbled that I am still on this earth and that he gave me the miracle of more time. 

Thursday finally came to meet with Dr. Miklos, who was once just a doctor to me, but now is also a friend. As I considered this, I was filled again with thankfulness to have had him on my team, especially considering how crucial it is to have a good team of people working with you and for you. 

(Side note: Being confident in your doctor is critical. If you don’t get a “good vibe” or feel like your doctor isn’t there to listen, serve, and support you, then keep shopping around until you find one that makes you feel that way. It will be worth it!). 

As he went over the numbers, I anxiously awaited his explanation of my elevated numbers. To my surprise and relief, he said that my numbers were all wonderful!

Praise Jesus!! This is exactly how I felt inside!!

The lab work showed all my numbers were “back up,” meaning my immune system had recovered completely– and I was as healthy as a “normal” person.  The numbers that concerned me were just indications of recovered T cells and B cells! Whew! Praise God! \

I was and am still healed!

And that’s not even the best news that he shared… He also told me: 

NO MORE SCANS!!!!

I was overjoyed! Given all the stable scans that I have had for the last 4 years, there is no need to subject me to any more radiation; blood work follow ups will be sufficient! 

As I reflect over these past several weeks, I cannot help but think back to the beginning: It’s been 5 1/2 years since my diagnosis and almost exactly 4 years since the day that I found out I had Double Hit Lymphoma and given a poor prognosis. Whether people attribute my healing to conventional therapy, to prayer, the holistic healing therapies, nutrition and supplements, or a combination, what matters most is that God allowed it all to work together for good and for His glory. 

And now my mission is to share that good news with others: There is HOPE for those who have been diagnosed with cancer or any other disease.  

Somewhere over the rainbow…dreams (and prayers) really do come true.

That’s my story… and I am sticking to it. 

“God works all things for good, for those who love God, for those who are called according to his purpose.”  Romans 8:28

Onward & Upward,

Kay

23 responses to “Somewhere Over the Rainbow”

  1. This latest post is awesome news Kay! I appreciate how you give God the glory! Yes, your efforts at nutrition and exercise and staying positive in mind and spirit as well as your connections with those who love you and your family make a big difference in your outlook and persistence. God bless you and your family! Greg

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  2. Kay, Thank you for sharing this great news. I know you all are so grateful for medicine and all the other things you did, but you said it perfectly “perfect healing comes from God!” What a wonderful attitude and testimony you continue to have. I hope you, Brandon and the girls have a wonderfully blessed Easter. Pat Miller

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  3. Oh Kay! This is such wonderful news ❣️God is and will always be so AWESOME 👏🏻 Many Blessings to You and Family Kayluv 💗🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

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  4. Thanks Kay for sharing your wonderful news. Awesome!!! I’m so happy for you (completely recovered), and believe that your story is really setting up HOPE for those who have been diagnosed with cancer or other diseases …Praising God!

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  5. What is a beautiful testimony. It will be a great encouragement for people who is currently under cancer treatment. I am so proud of you willing to spend the time to share your story to encourage and help people. God is with you and will bless you.

    Love, mom

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  6. It is amazing and a true miracle. God uses us and did a great thing through you. Your faithfulness through it all and positive mindset = healing. Thank you Jesus! I’m thankful to have my healthy and healed friend! Love you

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  7. PTL for this report Kay!!!
    What a wonderful way you expressed your thoughts and fears. Love your honest and real humanity but the reminder of the Healing Love of Jesus!
    We rejoice with you and are grateful to hear your wonderful update!
    Love to you and all your family.

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  8. How wonderful to hear from you and for the great news! May the Lord bless you and your family for the rest of your life! I look forward to hearing from you and enjoy your updates.

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  9. I am so happy to read about your continuing journey and the awesome results of all your dedication and hard work to get where you are. Thoughts and prayers

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  10. What awesome news Kay. Your post brought tears to my eyes. Don’t forget to give yourself credit for all the hours you spent researching doctors, looking into clinical studies, diet plans, etc., etc., etc. and pat yourself on the back for all the lifestyle changes you’ve made. You wouldn’t be where you are today if not for WONDERFUL YOU.

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